Thank God for great friends!

I went to Nashville this weekend to see Ginny and Ben and FINALLY got to see little Emma. She is the sweetest baby! I loved every minute of it. Their youth group had a lock in at the Family Fun Center there on Friday night Ginny and Ben help out a lot with the youth, so we all went and stayed up ALL NIGHT! I don't think I have done that since my Freshmen year of college and even then very rarely. We had a lot of fun and I learned some new things about Ben (he is quite the dancer, who would have guessed?) :) We also did some ice skating. Ginny was the most entertaining part of it. If you have ever been roller skating you know that there are always those who "hug the wall" because they can't quite get the hang of it, that was Ginny. Eventually she did get up enough courage to move away from the wall and did much better once she did. "It is a good thing Brock is not here to see this" did cross my mind a couple of times because Ginny never would have lived it down. Anyways all that to say that I had a blast spending the weekend with her and Ben, seeing Emma, and meeting all of their friends. It was great to get away for a few days and spend them with someone who knows me well, and loves me anyways. :) There is nothing like that feeling. I am so thankful for my friends. God has blessed me so much with them. Love ya Gin!

I am here!

So it has been a little while since I have posted so I thought I had better catch everyone up on everything. (For those of you how haven't gotten bored with having nothing new to read and still keep checking) :) I have finally moved to Cleveland and am getting all settled in. I love my new apartment and am actually enjoying living alone. I don't think anyone could ever top my Ginny as a roomate anyways. She was the best! Love ya Gin! Now that I am a little closer to a lot of you all feel free to drop in anytime. It is only a 3 1/2 hour drive (3 if you drive fast like me) from the FS area. I would love to see you guys. For some of you it is quite a ways longer but if you are ever in the area I would love to see you too! :) So...now I am in search of a job hopefully within my profession. So if ya'll could send a little prayer my way when you think about it, it would be greatly appreciated. There is also a lot happening within my family right now too so you can say a prayer for all of us along with the job. :) Other than all of that things are pretty much same ole same ole for me. I think that about catches you all up. :)

Changes...

Well the holidays are over and I will soon be heading to TN. I am going to miss my family but I am excited about being on my own again. Changes are always kind of hard though, and scary. I will enjoy living by myself though and am glad that I will not have to have a roomate. I am really not excited about having to pack though. I HATE packing and am horrible at it. Most who know me well can vouch for that so that is the part that I am dreading. Anyways I had a wonderful Christmas and got to spend a lot of time with friends and family, that is always great. That is my update for now!

Forgiveness...

Have you ever had someone not forgive you for something and it doesn't matter how many times you ask they just refuse to forgive it? Not only will they not forgive it but they have also chosen not to move past it. It would be so easy to say "I have done all I can do" and move on except when this is someone that you care about very deeply. I have been praying trying to figure out how to handle this but it just seems like my hands are completely tied. I can't force them to forgive me, and yet because of this unforgiveness there is a huge barrier in the relationship. I can't win and there doesn't seem to be anything that I can say to change the situation. This is just one of those times when I have no idea how to handle it. Maybe I am the only one hurting because of it and if that is the case then the best thing to do may be to just let them go. To steal a quote from Candice, "When love is lost....those who have loved the most deeply must also grieve most deeply". That applies to many situations and I am finding it to be very true.

I found an apartment and it was a complete God thing. I will be moving in towards the middle of January. God is so amazing and just keeps showing me over and over again how He will take care of me if I put everything in His hands and trust that He knows what is best. Thank you everyone who said a prayer about this for me!

Changes

I am heading down to Cleveland the Monday after Thanksgiving to look at apartments. I have called through my list and there have been a few that sound promising so I am going to look at those next week and hopefully will be securing that. Then I will move all of my stuff in before I head back here to Missouri. I figure if I like it I better secure it before I lose it. :) So just pray that I will find something that is clean, in a good area, and that I like. :) Have you ever noticed once you know something is the Lord how fast things move. That is obviously not always true but lately He has really been making some changes in me, and in certain circumstances surrounding my life and I am just amazed at his faithfulness and his guidance. He has been showing me that what I think I want is sometimes not at all what is best for me. That can be a hard and painful lesson to learn but I am learning to trust Him in this even when I don't always understand why things have happened like they have. God truly does know me best. It is very comforting to know that I can rest in that.

It wasn't my fault

I have been blocked out of my blog! Brock would probably say it is because I don't log into it enough but either way I haven't been able to get into it. BUT...they got it fixed so here is my update! I have been working, riding, and trying to get ready for Christmas. I am really bad about waiting until the last minute to buy all of my presents so I am trying to get ahead of things a bit this year. I can't believe it is that time of year again. It just seems like time has gone by so fast this year. I am also trying to get things in order for me to move after the first of the year. I have changed my plans again and will be moving to Cleveland, Tn in January or the first of February. That is what my original plan was anyways and after much prayer I really feel like that is where the Lord would have me go, so...Cleveland it is. I am having a hard time looking for apartments online there though. Everytime I put Cleveland in the search brings up all of the apts. in Chattanooga. Needless to say I am going to have to arrange a weekend to go and look at them all at one time. It is a little bit scary for me right now but I am excited too. I kind of feel like I did when I left Alaska to go to school at EC. I didn't know anyone in Georgia so it was very intimidating. Of course everything was fine when I got there and I had some great girls on my hall that year. Cleveland will be a bit different because I will be living in an apartment and I won't be starting school until the fall so there won't be as much opportunity to meet people. However i'm sure that once I find a good church that will all fall into place. The lord took care of me when I left for EC and I know that he will do the same for me here. He is so faithful!